alt="BlogAdorn.com">well, my birthday was on tuesday, the 12th, and i managed to survive it without killing myself or anyone else, so it is to be judged a success. things have been weebling and wobbling for me, one minute high, then low. not all that fun. yesterday i was tired and hurting, but in a good mood, then i heard this song on the radio and it made me cry and depressed me so bad. the doc lowered my intake on one of my antidepressants and i think i'm starting to feel it. i couldn't even cry when my friend clint died, i just had so many anti depressants in me to be able to cry. i still haven't been able to bring myself to take him out of my cell phone. anyway, today is renee's birthday, so happy birthday to her, seems to be a lot of us here in a clump. so happy birthday to anyone else who has a birthday anytime soon, or who have already had theirs. to everyone else, enjoy the weekend.
thank you for the birthday wishes and the sympathy over the loss of my friend and my struggle with it. i guess there is no closure because i never really got to say good bye to him, just a see ya with plans to hook up later. maybe he will come to me in a dream and i can give him a proper good bye. thank you for all your thoughts. i'm gonna try to get over here more often. i miss it.......kelli
i'm sorry about your friend...just wandered by and
reading your frustrations with your illness reminds
me of my struggle with my own depression and anxiety
and PTSD...i'm not Bi-Polar...i'm not manic ever...
but i dip down very low at times....it's so frustrating
then add the physical pain...sometimes...there is
little relief...
god bless ya....and take care of yourself,
and thanks for sharing this with us...it helps
me too
love,
purple
So sorry to hear about your friend Clint. You are in my thoughts and prayers. My heart goes out to you in your loss. Sometimes there is no way to understand the pain life inflicts. I hope you can take comfort in knowing that he cared. And all those that come in to our lives become a part of us forever.
Even though you may not feel like celebrating try and be good to yourself. You deserve it.
Glad to see you around again. Hang in there.
Jackie/Colo
it's good to know someone benefits from it. thanks for commenting and lending me your support.
thank you jackie for your words and support, i appreciate both. take care. hopefully i will be around more, i'm going to try to make more time for it.
thanks for your kind words and your concern. i'd be more than happy to talk to you more at length. what kills me with all the pills and stuff is looking around and feeling not much of anything and realizing, this is not what my world looks like. my world is all of kilter and crazy and spinning out of control, but it's my world. but in the interest of marital stability, i take the meds so that i don't drag both my husband and son down into what my real world is. i don't think they would like it. lol.